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Originally Posted by kittykins9
Mouse,
For years I went without the fear of death, and instead was glad to think it could happen at any time. In fact I hoped it would so i could be free. I was surprised when I came to where you are now-- which is fearing death. I honestly never thought it would happen again and that I could grow so attached to life that I had anxiety about parting from it. I don't know if you've been in similar places (seeking death), but I almost welcomed the fear of death as suggesting growth on my part-- reattachment to life. I know that probably doesn't minimize your fears, and it doesn't minimize mine. However, at least I was able to spin it in a direction that helped me understand part of my illness was over or at least in remission.
I hope this helps, though I'm not sure it will, but perhaps your fear of death is like mine, signifying that life is worth living.
Best,
Kkins9
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Oh yes I have been in that place, seeking death, for most of my life, and hadn't really thought about the sudden fear of death as being a positive sign, but now you come to mention it, I do believe you on to something. Its so easy to devalue life and not want it, but wanting it is a whole different ball game, one that is pretty new to moi, and inside I feel I have a battle going on between the dark one and the positive one,
"take that, and that you swine", enter erroll flynn and his cast of merry men LOL!
Thanks.