I also do not understand how I could be doing good one moment and then fall apart out of nowhere. Then, a day or so later, feel fine again and be unable to even find inside myself the internal pain that overwhelmed me earlier. With a thought like, "What the heck was THAT all about??" Then go about things as usual, feeling fine until WHAM!! I get triggered again. . .and then immediately fall apart once more. It's a cycle.

Feeling good
Trigger
HUGE PAIN!
Numbness
Exhaustion
Sleep it off
Then slowly, back to normal again

This happens to me over and over. One of my diagnoses is PTSD. If anyone here has it, do you experience anything like this cycle? I don't know what to do about it, or how to stop it.