I have done so well in the last few months. No depression or extreme mood swings. But, lately I have been thinking about dad more and more. He keeps coming to mind and I have begun surrounding myself with him again. Sounds like am ok idea but it only makes it worse. Im back to listening to the songs from his funeral...hugging the teddy I made in memory of him, watching old childhood videos to hear his voice etc.

Last session with T I think I randomly said something about Dad and she said..." I'm wondering....if we need to do more grief work." I blew it off and told her no no i am fine. I don't think she bought it.I don't wanna admit to her thatI am having problems with it.