Peaches,
Yes, I can relate. I was also diagnosed with complex PTSD. I go through these phases as well. I do so well then WHAM I'm down. The problem is, I don't know why, I don't know what it is that triggered me. In fact it started again 2 days ago. I felt sad, wanted to cry but didn't allow myself, then last night, I start balling in bed for no reason. I hate that I can't explain it and that I don't know why. I had this happen about 2 weeks ago as well, it lasted three days, then I began to come out of it.

When I am in this state, sometimes I find myself agitated and sad. To the point where I am like whats the point. I don't want to be dealing with this the rest of my life. I feel completely alone in it. I live with 4 roomates but they have no idea, I don't share things like this with them. If I cry its in my room alone at night.

I have therapy today, I am thankful for that because of where I have been emotionally the past 2 days. Yet, I am so nervous to go there, I typically go in there saying I am fine and try to supress what I am feeling. I don't like people to see that side of me.

Some people know thier triggers....if I could just figure out what mine are, I could try to avoid them, prepare for them, whatever the need.

Hangingon