that took a lot of honesty and courage to come clean, (((SI))), with us but also yourself. "dust yourself off and don't look back" except to see what were the triggers that set things in motion again.. you can avoid those triggers in the future by talking about them in a meeting...or with us!! i'm just glad you got real with yourself and are getting back on track. sobriety can be so rewarding and so many good things result just by putting down that drink, jme. feel free to pm amytime if you feel comfortable doing that and want to talk. we are here for you and you matter a lot to us!!