((Hanginon))
It's still early in the relationship, so naturally you would be upset at a cancellation because all those pesky doubts kick in. I remember early on in therapy T called me and cancelled due to illness. He said he would call the next day to reschedule but he didn't and I panicked. It was an oversight but I was so sensitive at the time because it was all new and I didn't know what to think.
I know you are lonely, but we are here to listen.
Take gentle care. T will be back soon!