Yes, me too, I made some boos boos

with other friends, so I guess I learned somethings for this time around. So far so good. I don't share all my issues with her. I try to keep in fairly lighthearted, trying to gain some trust.
Maybe if she notices something different about you (depending on who is out) you can keep in mind that everyone changes as they age and when they haven't seen each other for a long time no one really knows the reason for the change. Just have fun.
It appears you have people who are your friends here on PC but I know how nice it can be to have outside people too (even though it's not easy sometimes). Make the first visit really short. Be nice and expect her to be nice back. Keep positive and tell a joke or two! Sometimes I have a lot of nervousness around her for no reason that I know of. So, I try to breathe and look out the window at something and then get back as soon as I can.
All the best to you Rhap.
Ice