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Originally Posted by greenidentity
To me it is important to get a dx, otherwise I feel like I'm just a bad person who cannot be helped. It's my worst fear!! That I just really suck, and don't deserve to be happy or be dx with anything, because relly I'm just terrible to the core. 
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I can certainly understand your feeling a need for a DX. That feeling of being a bad person who cannot/does not deserve to be helped is certainly a bit BPD-ish
Rap & Sicklysweet have a point though; your T might well be doing you a favour by not labelling you as BPD; it's very misunderstood, even by many T's. The agression/hostility, for example, need not be overt; mine (yes, I have a DX of BPD) is internalised. At least she's arranging DBT for you, which is fantastic!
Have a look at
http://www.borderlinepersonality.ca/borderquietb.htm which was posted here by someone a while back (sorry, can't remember who!) and which I found very helpful & reassuring, in a way, after all of the "Walking on Eggshells" stuff.
