Wow! That truly must feel like not only the rug has been pulled from underneath you, the very Earth!!!!

I would hold fast to the truths that ARE still truths in your life- it sounds like you have a family of your OWN at least a husband of your own- is he a comfort in the midst of all this?

You are still YOU and a very special You at that.

Others can have ideas on how to get the info you need...but I wanted to extend EMOTIONAL support to you