I dont know if anyone here remembers me... I was an active member around 2002-2003, i think.

Anyways, just a little background info on me for those of you who dont know me... abuse, abuse, abuse... and that about sums it up, lol. (Okay... well physical all my life by my parents... emotional and psychological by parents... and what felt like psychological torture by an ex during a very bad situation.)

well... i got over all that, i actually became normal (got over major depression, ptsd, self injury, etc... but occassionally had minor anxiety things... and i still have a bit of an obsessive personality at times, but i keep it in check)

so, i've been normal for quite awhile, (well... i kinda bottle everything up now... ) and just had a random question about something that happened today... it kind of freaked me out and i couldn't find anything about it online, so i figured id come and ask over here.

Today i lost time. It was only for about a minute... but it really freaked me out. I was in a choir practice, we were singing a song... we were on the first page, we ended the section, and i went on to start to sing the next section... and everybody started singing the VERY LAST section of the song... when we finished i asked everybody (its a small group... maybe 20 people) if we had skipped a section... they all said no... i started singing the part i thought we skipped, and they said that we had sung it... and i was just like... "holy crap.. i must have spaced out or somethign.." and the girl next to me said she could still hear me singing it... but its not as if i spaced out... when i space out i KNOW i space out...

i just LOST the TIME! it really freaks me out. thats happened before to me... one time i can remember losing time for a few minutes back in 8th grade... once time just was extremely warped... i watched minutes go by in seconds, and each period of school felt like it was out of order (first period felt like last, lunch period felt like first, last period felt like the period before lunch, and hours went by after school in minutes) in the 11th grade... and i think i lost a little time while singing once in 10th grade i believe...

i never paid much attention to these things... but today freaked me out. i blatantly lost time. other times it was more subtle or something... i dont know... i space out sometimes, but i know when i am. i dunno... maybe im just freaking out over nothing... but... it really freaked me out.