Lucky you earthmama, that is so cool that he has never cancelled on you.
My old T never did either. Of course she didn't have a family so it was easier for her.
If I actually get the nerve up I may talk with her about it but I'm not sure I can. Not good with people knowing the needy side of me.

Yes it is tough kiti, thank you for the hugs. I ended up calling my boyfriend and went out with him, which I usually never do during the week because of all that I need to do for school. Howver, I really needed the distraction, of course he didn't have a clue what was going on, I don't share these things with him....maybe one day.

Wow Miss C, I so would have felt that same way, panic is a good word for it. I would be thinking, did I do something wrong, maybe the T doesn't like me, my T doesn't care about me because she forgot me, and all that nonsense. Thank you for listening.

Thank you Ktgirl, I'll try to not be so rough with myself.

Luce, exactly, I do know alot of this info. I pretty much always know when I am thinking irrationally, I just need to learn what to do with it. It's like I have the key but just don't know how to use it, that can be really frustrating.
I am really, really good at minimizing and intellectualizing, and it often ends with me negative self-talking to get myself out of things..This is something I really need to work on but its something I have done for so long that its hard to pull out of.
I also still have a hard time accepting that I have triggerd parts or "a little me" inside because I am an adult and it doesn't seem logical to me. Thats another thing that I really need to work on.
Thank you for your advise, I really appreciate it.

mLp holmes, thank you as well, I hear what you are saying. I could try and talk with my T about that; However, it means being vulnerable and I am horrible with that.
I'm listening and maybe I will just bite the bullet and bring it up with her, no promises

Hangingon