Really rough day today. Walked out on therapist as she wanted me to contract for safety and I would not as I knew I was going to cut. Cut pretty bad in couple places as I have seperation of layer of skin. I just don't care anymore. I'm tired of being sick, people telling me what to and not to do, meds not working and having ****** side effects...I just don't want to deal with it anymore. T called my boyfriend now he's on my *** - don't have access to guns anymore as he changed combination on safe, but I have lots of pills should I decide the time is right. Screw everything. Sorry guys - I just need to unload as I'm so mad right now.