Kathie, this is awfully close to home for me, so it's hard for me to objectively give you any advice.

I once thought I loved my abuser, had two children with him, but once I recognized what he did to me was abuse, there's no way I could consider going back to him. If I did, I'd be dead. Emotional abuse doesn't leave bruises on the outside. It breaks you down from the inside out. I have doubts that's the kind of life you'd want your child to have? Just because you once loved him, doesn't mean you have to go back to him because you got pregant.

I want to be supportive, but I can't. I get the feeling you want to be told it's OK to go back to this man, and IT'S NOT!!

After reading your posts up to this point, I can't imagine how you could possibly think the right thing to do is go back to this guy who for all intents and purposes kidnapped and raped you.