I scored a 100 on the Sanity Test's Self-Esteem section. I keep thinking that If I persistently thought about it hard enough, wish for it long enough, that I would get a new person as myself. I'm not talking here about changing or improving who I am. I keep imagining and fantazising that I am someone else... someone I made-up inside my head, that of a fictional man's entire world as my own. I've built, augmented, polished his personal qualities (personality, character, virtues, temperament, dispostion, etc.), life-situations, environmental-setting bit by bit, over the years, that presently, I have sort of a running personally-tailored, self-gratifying movie in my head.

My mind flips on the switch of the mental projector against the inner wall of my head, and I see and feel how immensely happy I could be if that was indeed my reality.

For numerous personal reasons, I feel that I don't deserve to be confident or self-secure.

Am I being dellusional here in my habitual fantazising? Is this Psychosis? Escapism? Or am I just a hopeless, hapless daydreamer?