dont give up ((hippiegirl))) it can get better in time... keep letting us know how you feel and remember to keep an inner need alive within you, that is the one that tells you that in order to survive this, you need to get thru it, work your way thru it, moment by moment at times... keep your inner light alive and keep your head above water at all times unless you are diving for pearls, and then, wear a mask ...

but seriously, take care of you, k? sending hope and light and all the others are giving out great help to us all too ..