I want to echo what has been said, a year is a huge deal - I think sometimes a day is a huge deal. Ok, you cut again, you are human and you relapsed but here is the great thing - you posted about it. You did not hide in shame and continue, you made an awesome choice to talk about what is going on.

I'm sorry to hear that you are having so much trouble finding someone to talk to where you live. I'm not sure if this is possible but is there a teacher at school that you can talk to in confidence? Is there a school counselor? I'm almost positive that unless you are actively suicidal they are not obligated to tell anyone. You don't even have to mention the cutting, you can talk about the abuse or how you are feeling if that would make it easier. The cutting is a result of other things going on and maybe talking to someone will help.

I hated being told that I was doing it for the attention. I think in some ways I was hoping that someone would see the scars and realized I was hurting but then what. I also did it b/c it's the best way that I had to deal with my emotions. There are other ways and I am finally learning that now.

I understand about not wanting to talk to your parents or friends. I lived in so much shame and fear about what I was doing that no one knew for a long time. For me it was a very frightening and alone feeling that I might never get help. Once I went to college, I started to realize that I was not alone.

Please keep us posted on what is going on and again - A year is a HUGE deal.