Thanks a ton Zh for your input. This is something that I thought about in the past, but I never felt strong enough to do. I tried yoga awhile back, but it cost to much for me to keep going too. The massage therapy is actually cheaper to my great surprise. It's $30 for 30 minutes and $55 for an hour ( Deep tissue). This is something I can afford to do. She stated that it would be once a month or once every other week.

I found this massage therapist through one of the local hospitals. She works in an outpatient clinic run by the hospital, it's a Health and wellness center. Your like me I'm very skeptical of people. But since she's part of the local hospital and was very open with the training she has had I feel more at ease. I'm affraid of going to just some corner shop with someone who took an online course and was let lose. If ya know what I mean.

I think my body has so much toxic waste built up in it that I'm going to keep getting sick. I know she told me how really really important it was to drink lots of water after a massage to get the stuff out of your system.

I haven't talked to my T about this yet. He's very open to any ideas I have that could help me. I want his thought on it before I ever do this. I've actually thought about maybe doing the massage therapy the day before I go to T. Not sure? Then I thought since I see my T every other week ( insurance reasons only ) that I could maybe do massage therapy on my off weeks.

When I start I'm wanting to go for 30 minutes to start off with. Just so I can develope a comfort level with the massage therapist and to see how I will react emotionally. She seems to be very understanding, but I know I will have set what my boundries are. Something I'm not been to good at in the past. Right now I believe I could really benefit from the release of the physical tension. I'll let ya know what T says and what my plans end up being. Thanks, Monty