It all started with memory loss and cognitive dysfunction, was referred to a neurologist and then a psychotherapist. I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, and dysthymic disorder. Lately I have been having a hard time functioning at work. I get so stressed out my thoughts race, I picture everyone talking bad about me and I am always on the defensive. I am so ready to act on impulse because of my stress levels and I have been working hard at holding back.

It is getting to the point where it is very difficult for me to do so. So I asked my work for accommodations and willing to show the diagnosis and the doctors recommendations. My employer argued that they want a specific note from the doctor with the diagnosed disability, what the accommodations are and how they would benefit me. So I went back to the psychotherapist and have been waiting for about 4 weeks for a letter.

Nothing. So work is not going to approve any accommodations for me. My BPD is getting out of control and I have an appointment scheduled with a psychologist and coming up with a psychiatrist also. I have already suffered one panic attack at work and was transferred by ambulance and the psychotherapist who diagnosed me told me my BPD will never go away and it has been with me since childhood because of trauma and I have no realization of any grey areas. It's either white or black to me and no compromise and that I need to continue intensive psychotherapy and seek a psychiatrist for medical treatment.

As a teenager growing up I was always very defensive and anytime someone said something to me, it usually ended up in a fight or a car chase. I've been in everything from being hit with baseball bats, mallots, car chases, being knocked unconscious, and once I reach the stages of adrenaline and anger I lose sense of who I am and able to block out all pain. In the past I had taken drastic risks intentionally putting my life on the line based on impulsive behavior and I've worked hard to fight the urges and they are slowly coming back. The one extra break at work would definitely help me out because I could use that time to listen to softer music to help reduce my intense moods, emotions etc.

Does anyone have any advice on how I can get the requested accomodations because of my BPD? Anyone else been through it?