I agree with everyone. I can't deny what's right, even if it does hurt. I'm feeling the way I did with my ex on a daily basis, like pure caca, like I'm just the worse type of *****. I'm trying to cool my demeaner, because I'll admit, I can run my mouth like a mean drunken sailor. I tend to have that verbally abusive edge. My Mom was very verbally abusive to us kids and I seem to take my anger out on the men involved in my life, verbally. I DO have some responsibility here....BUT it does NOT justify him for wussy popping me in the face while I was driving down the highway. I believe the same as most of you and that is a woman should never be hit by a man, physically men are much stronger than women, especially upper body. What's worse about my incident is I didn't have the chance to block my face, see it coming, or hit the sonva ***** back. It was shisty.

With my ex I did blow a lot out the back, because I would constantly tell myself that I was in a dysfunctional marriage.... but I had two children with this man, 6 years under our belt. But with my now boyfriend, there's no obligation other than a apartment. That's it....no kids, no years.....just a bunch of drunken times and awesome sex. That's it.

I think I should sit down with him and discuss what it is we are wanting from this relationship and if we should continue on this way. If he's unhappy and I'm unhappy, than what the hell is the use.......