I don't think you are a whiny baby at all. That sucks. I really wish your husband would support you. Do you think he would go to therapy with you?

Also, DON'T feel ashamed with your kid. I have a 7 year old and he's the only person in the world who thinks I'm perfect. I bet yours does too. He doesn't care if you don't have a job. I promise he doesn't. As long as you love him and do your best to care for him (especially emotionally), I am certain his image of you is glowing. Kids are FAR more accepting of our flaws than we are and definitely more than other adults. Please don't feel ashamed.

As far as the not talking to the judge thing, I would be the same way OR sometimes I do the exact opposite. I'm terrified, but I know I look insane, so I just start talking and talking and talking and I cannot stop myself. Its a horrible experience. I'll feel my heart race and my chest starts constricting, I can hardly breathe. But I will talk and talk. Arg.