Kathie, I just went and re-read quickly what you first wrote about him in Anxiety on 4/14.

You CAN'T go back to this guy. He's watched you try to kill yourself SEVEN TIMES??!! He's carved "die *****" in your arm?!

You don't know what to do? You get a restraining order and protect yourself and that baby is what you do. You say it's your body, but think for a moment how your parents are going to feel when they're putting that same body in the ground after you decide to go back to this guy because he has you in a mind fog.