Hey there,

You have alot going on.......it is always especially bad at dx time because thats when it feels at its worst.......as for your job, I cannot say. I was on disability for years after my dx. I think you need to consult a union member, Human Resources, work/staff counsellor or at best, a lawyer.

You are in the "chaos" moment........which like everything, will pass. You are on the right path with your healers to get better, but it can be a long painful process especially with BPD. But the rewards for all your hard work, will pay off. I have had BPD for 15 years and done some horrendous things but my battle has resulted in a good victory. I still fight it every now and then, but I am more familiar with it.......I treat it like a petulant but endearing friend now.

I am more than happy to discuss this with you further......to try and give you some support.......keep talking