I should go to rehab. =|
But I don't really see myself 100% sober ever. I kinda don't want that since I'm not really ADDICTED per say.
Maybe I should jus go to learn to be sober-minded again. Before I was n did alot of drugs...then I grew to jus do drugs cuz there's really nothin else to do. But some people said they didn't quit but rehab helped put everything in perspective. Like how it was before when you first started doin drugs.

N the drugs I do don't really help. They're just kinda an escapism. Like trippin or bein drunk or high. Not really uppers to help me get things done. Jus things to have fun and kill brain cells and suppress almost all thought. =/

I think I just lost myself. Not necessarily a drug or mental problem. But both? Or maybe not knowin how to deal with my issues. Probably the latter.