It is so hard for me to sit here and read over and over what you said. I know it's the truth and I really appreciate it. I can't remember who, but someone wrote that now he has a legal right to be in my life. I am in the prosess of getting an order of protection. I just can't stop thinking that I am betraying what my parents have said all my life. My biological mother went to the measure of telling Jr. when I was in a mental hospital.