Hi.

I'm not greatly sure how this goes but I saw a few people post things asking for help or advice and I'm not sure if this is the right forum, but i completed the sanity score test and it pointed to this but im not entirely sure if its right or not and I was just wondering if anybody.. Had.. any.. anything..

About a year ago I had two or three blackouts.

with the blackouts came memory loss, nothing major, just short term. And some drowseyness.

Once again, nothing major.

I went through the normal routes of the hospital, saw a neurologist, had all these checks, but nothing could be found. So we waited it out and things sort of went ok.

every now and again, i see things as if im looking at myself. like for some reason my vision is now behind me in the top corner of a room. that might not be strange but sometimes i just seem to, drift away form myself, and, it's like, my concious takes a backseat and the rest of me just goes on ahead.

Its a bit like a dream. in the way that, when you know your dreaming, your doing things you'd probably normally do, or reacting how you'd normally react, only, you have no real control over it? your just acting on impulse of what you would usually do, or what your meant to do.

i feel, like,when people talk to me, i watch their lips, and the short distance for information to get form my eyes to my brain is now a massively long distance.

and to reply, it's much the same.

it's almost as if everything relays from my body to my brain and back again in sloth mode.

but even then it just doesn't appear to be me.. to me..

this is really confusing, i admit im not great at explaining anything, but, it's like im viewing things from the lens of a camera..

you take the picture and you have a real moment, just... a plastic version of it.... argh this makes no sense, it's so hard to explain..

but to cut the story now, this had been happening on and off for the last year. lately it's getting worse. I just kind of drift off sometimes, not to sleep or anywhere in particular, but i'll find myself mid conversation and i wont remember what was being said.

or somebody will be gesturing toward me as if prompting a reply to a question i havent heard.

it's getting somewhat more worrying now and I am pretty, weirded out by it, and im scared to hell incase im insane. which is probably not the coolest thing to say but, i just need advice..


thank you for your time.