excuse me, someone who watched you try to kill yourself has a legal right to be in your life? where did you come up with that? he is a serial abuser and if you do "let" him back into your life, he'll kill you and the baby. and he carved on your arm? you would rear a child in a home with someone who carved on your arm? i certainly hope that you make the right decision. the decision to save your and the babies lives.....