unsureofeverything,

There is so much help available today. When things began to surface for me there wasn't too much understanding around. I spent a long time thinking I must be going crazy before someone pointed out that only 'normal' people think they might be crazy. Crazy people don't question it or worry about the fact. The fact that you are asking questions and seeking information proves that you are not crazy. You are simply dealing with some perhaps serious issues. Information goes a long way to help us understand ourselves, even if others don't. Take care of you.