I'm sorry to say that I think I failed to articulate precisely what I mean.

I'm saying I want to be 'Person X' (a completely fictional person), not BE LIKE 'Person X'. And that is utterly unattainable because I can't chose when I was born, where I was placed, and who my family members are going to be.

I know it's a useless, pointless, fruitless practice. But I am fixated in that world, even if it's unrealistic.

So, again, what is that? More input, please.

Thanks.

Oh, and what is 'DID'?