my3sns,
My T has also mentioned a few times that she can hear the pain in my voice when I am talking. That she can tell a times how hard it must be for me. The first time she said it my immediate thought was whatever, she's probably just saying it so I will cry or something and I am not about to let the tears out right now.

Kiti,
That "lightbulb" moment actually happened before I started T. It was one of the main reasons I began to seek out therapy, to help me to learn how to become more intimate with people, also because I had begun to feel depressed out of no where and I didn't want to mess up my schooling. Its something I never thought I would do in my whole life. I had only heard bad things about therapy from people who were misinformed, so it was hard for me to break through that.

When I first started therapy, my intention was to keep the childhood SA a secret, ufortunately it all goes together. As of now I am glad I finally did seek out a T; I just hope I don't regret it in the end.

hangingon