Like 80% at the least?
I used to get **** done n write my essays n when everythin I had to do was done I'd reward myself with drugs. Sometimes. N I had other stuff to do besides drugs. I like macro photography but winter sucks. I don't wanna go outside in the first place. N winter in general is bad lighting n just depressing shades of grey. N I used to have a reptile collection. I've been on n off homeless n my babies are at my friends house right now. I'm at my parents house temporarily n we're way too poor to have anythin else runnin up the electricity bill. I like goin on walks with my dog. N I like goin to happycore raves. But they're all in NY. Or Philly. DC is jus DnB n breaks. Or ****** progressive house or trance. Fancy electro. =/
I don't want a job. Not even to support my habit. I'd rather be poor n happy than miserable n supporting my habit to relieve misery. I hate having a job. It's so soul crushing n I don't really feel it accomplishes anything. Except for money, but that's not somethin I really need. I mean I guess you do if you're sober but sober people just tend to waste their time with mindless distractions like TV or shopping or the like..
I'm tryin to transfer to college. Which I think is a good investment. N I'm serious cuz I only have one more shot at it n I'm not gonna **** it up this time.

I've always been responsible. To an extent at least. I never let myself hit rock bottom. Because I know when I'm headed that way n slow down? Not to mention I hate feeling like my body is destroyed. That's why I'm stuck in drug limbo. I'll never **** up my life enough to really NEED help. I'll never want drugs THAT badly to steal or pawn things or bum money off of people. I think I'll always be stuck in drug limbo. But I should be a bit higher up. Or more grounded? Not sure in this case but slightly less drugs n more of a grip in reality. I don't think I really fit into one extreme or the other. Completely sober or completely a junkie. I don't think either are the path for me. But a happy balance n to keep my head up n pointed in the right direction. And in the right reality...