deep blue sea - i am the same way sometimes..

sounds like you've got a good plan there - glad that you're acknowledging your feelings and realizing that there is work to do on them. they can be overwhelming and i wouldn't blame anyone for becoming bitter and cynical for what people in this forum have gone through.

it's kinda like those people asking "why so sad? cheer up, life is good, get over it" - i always feel like giving them a good punch in the face, or at least saying "it's people like you that don't help".

you're not alone - i hope you find help soon. this is a good place to start, though.

twilight