Hey,

I am the exact same. You just told my life story there

I am the complete same as you anxiousdude.

I am always doing things to please my family, friends, work colleagues. I never put myself first as i feel guilty if i do. I spend ridiculous amounts of money at Christmas, Birthday's etc for my family BUT i get no thanks for it. I just get a load of cheek and ignorance.

When i go out i always pay for my mates and i to have lunch etc. They all try and pay me but i refuse. I always just say pay for a round of drinks. I feel i do not deserve to be happy or to have friendships so this is my way of saying i guess THANK YOU!!

I met my best mate's mate from back home in October. My mate has said you are the spitting image of my mate you will get on so well. How right was she. We hit it off straight away. We were talking and she said our mutual friend is always saying you paid for this and that. STOP IT!!! I was like i can't i have a need to do this. I know i shouldn't but i have too.

My mate pays for a lot of things though its not always me who pays. She has a mortgage etc to pay for where as i dont so i think thats fair.

My mates think i am weird like that.

What do you guys think? Should i get a life?