God, I feel more terrible than before, I feel like trapped, I feel like I have no friends at all, I feel alone and I really need someone to help me, I feel like such a loser having almost no friends at all and sometimes I think why the hell I'm living, I shouldn't have been born in the first place, I don't know, this depression has gone bad day by day and I don't know, I see other people hanging out with a lot of friends, going to parties, drinking a lot in a saturday night, while I am in my home watching t.v , I don't know but I feel more comfortable being at home with my family than going to parties, I don't know if that makes me anti social, outside school I don't have friends and I'm always at home, is where I feel more love from my family, but right nowI just feel like it was a mistake me being born.