((((Orangelossom)))

Im glad you told us - that must have been eating away at you - probably still is - but I hope that telling and feeling the caring here helps a bit -

my dads cancer went to his lungs and well it was bad - it had gone all around his body so ... it got bad... I spoke to my mum the day before she died - they said she had been upset - I always wonder if it was somthing i had said - i'll never know -

but you feel that you should have saved them - that if only you had done this or that they would have survived - somehow its your fault - its not - I dont know if you hear that - but its not you did all you could to make her passing as easy as it could be - you have had so much sadness - I wish I could help but I only have words and and I know thats not enough - know that I am thinking of you and hoping things improve for you - Im so sorry -no-one should have to go through what you have been through