Most of the time, I don't like giving or sharing anything, may it be a thing or even information, to other people.

I feel so insecured that I think once I have already given what they want, they'll just turn around and leave me alone. Some may think this is irrational but it has been done me to more than once by people whom I thought were real friends.

I also want to love and make friends but I feel giving something to them is like sacrificing my whole self for uncertain friends.