we need ideas about what to do. Yesterday i had to appt and exam with pain management dr . His negativity and attempts to humiliate threaten and hurt me were successful. i can't understand why anything. i never want anyone to touch us again.
We're at a complete loss about what to do.
We went to appt with T afterwards -after going home because i thought if we changed clothes that i wouldn't hate myself so much. i hated myself so much more because T brought up all about f. and why we felt so s.
Then told us to go to er where there's no treatment or anything but torture- in the city where i live it's a useless nightmare there. now we're trying to - yes i guess we almost made it to morning. i hate myself so much . i wish that i could somehow find a T that wouldn't leave us in crisis and a way to find healing.
There isn't any hope. No one cares anymore inside- and outside they don't know how much we hurt. No one can help.
tears.
kerria