*hugs*

Abortion is not the worst thing in the world. He left the decision to you...

You need to make a decision that is good for YOU... it sounds like you would have a lot of trouble raising a child where you are, emotionally and financially. Do consider, what it would take to raise the child, can you do that? Should do it?

If it helps, try making lists of yes and no.

First PLEASE try to make the decision for YOU. Taking EVERYTHING else out of the picture.
Then, add in outside influences. And weigh them against what you feel

sending hugs, not an easy decision, it's one I fear ever having to make