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Old Feb 22, 2009, 11:21 PM
Orange_Blossom
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but you feel that you should have saved them - that if only you had done this or that they would have survived
I did save them on more than one occassion. The ambulance coming to haul someone away on a stretcher because they were ODing was a common sight. DOA was a term I learned early in life.

I've never really slept since I was a kid because I always had one eye open and one foot hanging off the side of the bed so I could react quicker when needed. I still sleep that way. I saved the house from going up in flames more than once too. Saved my brother from burning to death in bed from a cigarette. He was so out of it he wouldn't wake up.

I was just a kid (the youngest and only girl) but I was the "oldest" and most responsible one in the family. Even more so than my mother, who liked her whiskey a bit too much back then.

I did the best I could saving them, starting when I was eleven years old. I gave them all another chance at life at one time or another. They chose their paths.

I've often wondered which task was the reason for me to be here on this earth. To save them or bury them? Why else would I have to go through that?

Thanks for listening everyone, and for the shoulders and kleenex when I need it.