thanks madisgram, it's not that simple though. I don't know what my insticnts are. I don't know what I want. I think I'm just scared that my bf won't love me forever...so I'm hoping someone will...I think i ahve a lot of insecurities about this...I have very few friends and the mexican seemed like a good friend...he wants more than that. It was the first time ever that someone saw me as fun to be with...and I felt like I finally had a friend...now I just have trouble...I'm scared and I don't know what to do...I just want friends...I want people to love me for me...It's confusing...in someways I think the mexican is just upset because he wants what he can't have...my bf cares for me...but I don't think I'm good enough for him and i want him to be happy with someone who he is meant to be with...my family is broken and I'm raelly needy...he doesn't deserve that