Oh Orange... that must have been so soul tearing to witness.

You know what? I know you feel guilt at not being able to help or save her, but at that point there was nothing that ANYONE could do. You gave her such an amazing gift by simply being there with her. It must have been so incredibly hard for you to sit there and witness her final struggle, but you did it. It was the only thing that could be done, and it was done by you.

There should be no guilt in that, hun. I think that being there with another as they transition to death is one of the greatest gifts any of us can give anyone.