Want to run, get across the ocean...jump a boat, hell I will swim as long as it is away from him...

one phone call..is all it would take..and I could be out of here...just one phone call, have somewhere to run to...somewhere that is far from here...a good day and a half away..

Just..so..scared. trying not to go into panic, trying not to make any rash decisons..
but..hard not to, hard to focus, and I have classes all ****ing day, will be at the campus until almost 10pm tonight..

Just, stupid, I was stupid to think..I was safe, stupid to believe..that noone could ever hurt me again, I lied to myself, I lied to myself...