thanks madisgram, it's not that simple though. I don't know what my insticnts are. I don't know what I want. I think I'm just scared that my bf won't love me forever...so I'm hoping someone will...I think i ahve a lot of insecurities about this...
((( mo))) sounds like you have to get to know you first then, imho. relying on other people for your own personal happiness doesn't work well in the long run. it sounds like you're pretty young so perhaps you still don't have all your own "parts" put together just yet. that's ok, you're becoming an adult and it's an adventure! so it's best to know who you are and what you want first... and become comfortable with that just as it is. then you can branch out and pick someone compatible with you. i guess all of us at one time or another said i don't want to be alone!! but being comfortable in your own skin first is not as bad as you may think. it's fun getting to know who you are.
hope this helps you. you matter and i care. thanks for replying and explaining more about what's going on with you. life's kind of like an experiment as we become adults. we try this, we try that, and soon we know what it is we really want out of life!! you've got all the time in the world....enjoy the journey.