I don't post very much but I am starting to get scared so I decided to try this and see if I can get some insight.

I am depressed. I SI and nobody knows. I have a lot going on. I feel sometimes that it is too much. My parents do not want to be bothered with anything. They expect me to be perfect... but that is something that I will not get into. I have felt myself so sad that it is almost unbearable. I will get into these moods where I cannot get out of them. I feel hopeless. I know this is depression, I am very aware of that. but like i said, my parents cannot be bothered so I cannot get help for it. My mom is a narcissist. She is depressed also, and will not get help for it. I just want to be able to feel better. It seems like it is getting worse and i am scared that I may act on my thoughts.

I guess this is a start to what I want to say.

Please help me if you can... any input will help.