I'M GOOD!!!
I just hadta get rid of pot.
N I stopped takin my antidepressants.
Cuz they helped...n then they really didn't do anything. Then they started makin me REALLY depressed. Even more than before I took em. So I stopped n I feel really good!
Especially without pot. Downers suck. I'm already unmotivated n depressed n **** that jus brings me down more....brings me down more.
Uppers are the way to go!! Except for E.
N a few enlightening psychadelic experiences. But uppers have consequences. They make you feel HORRID. Like that afterwards OMG I'M NEVER DRINKING AGAIN FEELING. Which kinda pushes you to be sober by complete choice. Till a couple weeks later. But gettin f'd up two or three times a month really cuts back n puts me in that state I wanna be in. Able to party but not have it consume my life n focus on other things. I'm gettin one of my reptiles back today!
N I took up drawing again. I wanna learn to liquid dance too. So yay. I feel really positive. I'm good. Plus I'm gonna set up a psych appointment n start seein a psych once a week. Well it's after already but I'm definately callin tomorrow. I found a better solution I'm good for now. =]
N if this plan doesn't work out it's back to tha drawin board. But it's workin.