Hi Kendra (and all )
I'm glad you've been able to come here and have the courage to post and that you are willing and open to learning more about yourself/ves and the dx itself.... I know someone else already mentioned it, but in our system, journalling is absolutely essential !!! What we learned is that journalling doesnt just have to mean paper/pen/words..... it took a long time for ME to realize it, but journalling can also take the form of making collages, coloring pictures, even scribbling sometimes.... I'm sorry, I feel like I'm babbling but wanted to let you know I can epathize with where you're at.
Sending a giant bouquet of fresh flowers,
Jinsi