Welcome to Psych Central grainsofsand. Like your name btw. Sounds like you could use a day of peace and relaxation. How co-operative would hubby be to give you a full day's relief for one day on the weekend so that you can get out of the house and do whatever you want, without all the ruckus of kids? You mentioned that he is not very understanding. Maybe after spending one day in your shoes, that might change a little. If he's not listening, maybe you could try to be a little more assertive in getting heard. BTW, it's ok to cry when you need to. It's a release. Don't deny yourself that. Good luck. I hope you get a break soon. Oh, and hubby should clean the house on your day away too.