Recently my friend of nearly 30 years suddenly died from an aneurysm. I was at her funeral yesterday. This is on top of over 18 other losses in the past four years, including my sister's suicide 3 1/2 years ago. At the time of my sister's passing, I was working with a therapist that felt I was using all the losses to avoid doing therapy work. She denied me from talking about or trying to process the many losses. (It's a long and horrific story. The same T ended up abusing me.)

Thankfully I am working with a new therapist who understands the need to grieve. Unfortunately my friend's sudden passing has triggered all the other unprocessed grief and I am being flooded and overwhelmed with intense emotions. I feel like I am shattering.

It's been too much.

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