you can do this - your T will help you - armour is good for protection but T will help you reconnect - you can do this -

my t had been away and when I went in she said so whats been happening - wow shields up - no words - disconnected - so we talked ... surface stuff till i could say that I had fallen a little to bits when I had turned up for an appointment only to find it had been cancelled - its hard - armour - shields - they protect us when we need them but they can get in the way too

I hope your next session is better - your peotry expressed the problem so clearly - I hope you and your T can work this out - your T sounds like a very nice person so im sure things will get better - take care and let us know how you go P7