Try to tell yourself that your T is there to help you not hurt you, though it may feel like hurt. If there's a way to maybe go on a set schedule like every other week at a certain time, that might help your anxiety too. I have mine set the same time every other week. That seems to help me so I can prepare myself.
Rewarding yourself after is good too! I'll take the chocolate myself!! My husband takes me & I have him buy me a candy bar so I can have my chocolate. Do you take yourself? If you had someone else, they could maybe help you breathe a bit afterwards. After my chocolate, I usually just sit there w/ my husband & cry. Knowing he's there helps me. If you don't have someone to go w/ you, maybe when you get home come & post here.
Love,
RhysMadison