(((TPND))) i'm happy for you and connor. don't know the circumstances of you all being apart but hope that things go well for you.
the depression, etc. it takes a long time for us to get to where we got with depression. it takes as much time or more for us to heal and get on with our lives. i know it's hard to be patient about dealing with this but thru work with your t and meds if u take them, you will find improvement. i know cause i was so low at one point in my life. i had no hope at all. it was a gradual change, almost like being reborn-same body, different me inside, so i hope this for you too. try to stay focused on the recovery and stabilization and deal with each day as it comes using the coping skills you learn in therapy. it will fall together and life will offer you so much more! hang in there and know i care about you.